My Big Black D

Gotcha! I’m talking about my big black dog. If you are reading this post because you thought I’d be talking about my penis, you are awesome. You may also be a pervert. #justsayin

My twin brother Oak sent me a link to this video, and it made me cry. Thanks a lot, jerk. No, really, it was fucking awesome.

To find out about my big black dog, watch this video. It’s pretty short, and totally worth the few minutes. It’s better than this post is, at the very least.

Did you watch it? No? Go back and watch it! Did you watch it now? Yes? Good. The truth is, I have a black dog raining on me today. I have a pile of happy in front of me, but I can’t use that as an umbrella without making it all wet too. I’ll just keep looking at the pretties for now. I’ll also take my meds and exercise until I don’t hate my day anymore. Hoping it works, cause it’s fucking cold out there!

I hope you don’t have a big black dog, but if you do, beat him with a newspaper until he’s your bitch. (See what I did there?) Otherwise, see a shrinkydink. Talk to your friends. Get help, because it’s out there. I love you guys. Thanks for listening.

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  1. I saw this a couple of days ago and shared it on my personal as well as The Art of Mindbending Facebook pages. The pastor who married Steve and I was very happy to view this. She says she now understands more about what Depression entails and how it affects people. That surely gave me the feels. I”ll think I’ll add it to my blog too. <3 Love ya, Rory.

  2. I have mixed feelings about the video.
    1) A lot of people do have depression that they are able to control through various things: Meds, exercise, journaling, and talking, to mention but a few. Yay for these people! They know not how fortunate they are. Or maybe they do.
    2) The video irritates me. It begs me to ask: What about folks that nothing works for? Are there really people like this, where nothing works for them? Maybe they’re not trying hard enough, you say. Or maybe, just maybe, they have tried all the things they tell you try and nothing fucking works! They’ve tried the regular exercise, eating the right diet, journaling, breathing correctly, proper posture, meds up the ying-yang, yadda-yadda-yadda… And not just for a measly few weeks, but for fucking years. Yet, nothing has worked. In fact, it gets worse month by month, year by year. What about those folks? YES, there are those out there! I am very close to one, so I know for a fact they exist.
    I know this is your blog, Rory, and I’m not trying to take away from what you’re saying. However, if there’s others out there reading this and viewing the video and they happen to be in the #2 category, I want them to know they are not alone. For these people, this video is anything but encouraging, it’s depressing because it implies they do not try hard enough! No funnies intended. 🙂

    To everyone: I applaud how hard you try, if it works or not… 🙂

    • You are not the first to make a similar comment. The other person messaged me in another forum.

      I have to agree, there are many people who do not benefit from traditional aids. I understand this from a personal perspective as well. I am currently experiencing a depression that is not being helped by meds or therapy.

      I only post things like this in case it helps someone. It helps me to think things will be better, because for me, it will get better.

      • LOL.. I read the post written by you-know-who on FB after I’d written here. I thought it was funny how similar our comments were.

        Yes, hope is everything. Everything. Sometimes it is the only thing. The person I was talking about believes as you, as far as things getting better. Sometimes holding onto it tightly as the only thing that keeps him hanging on. It amazes me how strong he is at times despite what life has thrown at him. I don’t know you as well, but I’d say the same for you from what little of you I do know.

        You guys amaze me at the strength you have and the courage you show to keep pushing forward, even when it might be slow moving. I know your circumstances are entirely different in so many ways and I don’t want it to sound like you two are the same: You are individuals and come from entirely different backgrounds. I applaud you both for doing everything you can.

  3. Tina

    Sometimes it helps to have a real pet that is always there for you when you need them. I know the dog I had when we were in High School helped my deal with my parents drinking and fighting just by being there. I could talk to him about what was going on and cry if i needed to and my dog never judged me. He was just there for me.

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