Childhood Trauma | Terminally Intelligent

PTSD and Feeling Helpless

May 26, 2016terminallyintelligentCoping Skills, Mental Illness, PTSDChildhood Abuse, Childhood Memories, Childhood Trauma, PTSD

My childhood trauma sometimes triggers a cycle of events that leave me in a no-man’s-land of helplessness.

Flash, Bang, Flashbacks

July 4, 2015RoryPTSD4th of July, Childhood Memories, Childhood Trauma, Children, Fire, Flashbacks, July 4, July 4th, PTSD

Fourteen years ago, I formed my most vivid holiday memory to date. July 4, 2001 is a day I will not be forgetting. Dirk, the true genius of DIY plumbing, made our family an arsenal of firework-powered weapons. Most notably, he made a series of steel pipe “guns” which shot bottle rockets. As you can imagine,

That Damned Well

June 17, 2015RoryAnxiety, Coping Skills, PTSDAnxiety, Childhood Memories, Childhood Trauma, Dirk, Guilt, PTSD

I was thinking about my old house again (go figure), and I remember a nasty old well we had. Our water source had been converted over to County utilities years before we came to squat in my childhood home in Arkansas. Long before the fire got the property, the ice wreaked its havoc as well.

Meth Fires

June 16, 2015RoryAnxiety, PTSDChildhood Trauma, Drug Crime, Meth, Meth Fires, PTSD7 Comments

I just looked up my childhood home on Google Earth. We all do it, right? We wonder who lives in the room we learned to read in, or who mows the lawn we seeded years ago. I just wanted to see if my old chicken coop was still standing. It wasn’t. The entire house, the well,