It’s hard to talk about PTSD. It’s a hell of a disorder to deal with in so many ways that it would take me years to fully explain it. The real bitch of it is that my form of PTSD is my own, and not like anyone else’s. In some ways, it’s easier for me
Last week, my doctor told me I won’t be seeing her anymore. This was expected, because she is a pediatric doctor, and she was a temporary replacement for my last doctor who just up and quit. It went well, I guess, with one caveat. She suggested I alter my drug routine. I SHOULD NEVER FUCK
First of all, I’m doing NaNoWriMo this year. For the month of November, I’ll be working on my novel a LOT. This may mean my posts here are a little spare sometimes, but I promise I will still make this blog a priority. Secondly, I hate my brain. This morning I had nightmares about me
So, I’ve talked about flashbacks before. But, I didn’t go into all the details there. Today, I’m going talk about the different kinds of flashbacks, and give you some examples. One of these is really personal. I often assume people know that my work can be triggering. But today I HAVE to say it: TRIGGER WARNING!
You would think, with a name like Terminally Intelligent, that I would talk about death more. Well, I try my damnedest not to. It’s depressing, and hard for people to hear about. Not to mention the triggers that death can bring up for some people. On that note: Trigger Warning! I have an acquaintance who
While at my old doctor’s office a while back, I was asked to describe my flashbacks. It’s hard for me to talk about, and her judgmental attitude just made it harder. The thing is, I don’t have Hollywood’s idea of flashbacks. My flashbacks aren’t guts-n-glory. I don’t have flashbacks of dragging a friend from the
To whom it may concern: You may be used to some “publications” occasionally being graced with letters from the “Editor.” This will not be so polite. I am the Jailor. I am the voice in Rory’s head that keeps him up at night, and the only reason he can sleep. I am the obsession, he
TRIGGER ALERT: This whole post is likely a trigger. Don’t read it if you are sensitive to such things. I’m so tired that I’m shaky. That doesn’t help what I have to deal with. Last time, back in late January, we spent the afternoon at the hospital, and checked him in at evening time. The
Sometimes I try to explain what it means to have PTSD. This is rare. It is very difficult to talk about, but I’ve had a stroke of insight into myself, and thought I’d share. Think about your dreams. Sometimes we dream about the people we love doing something terrible. Someone once woke up and immediately
Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline One of the questions I get the most often is; “What does it feel like to be suicidal?” I think people are trying to understand why I would want to kill myself, not once, but twice in my life. I’ve never had a good
