So, I’m a bit off. I’m dealing with an odd combination of emotions, including feeling hyper, excited, happy, worried, frustrated, and oddly relaxed. It’s hard to focus on things like being socially appropriate, and wording things well for the kids. It’s also hard to make decisions, because I don’t know if I really want to
Sometimes I don’t know why I feel the way I do. I just get happy, sad, excited, whatever. Other times, I screw up, and do something dumb. Like drink 8 cups of English teas. Eight. What on Earth was I thinking? Oya, I was thinking, “Gosh, this tea is excellent. I can’t believe Mormons don’t
Sitting here, crying my eyes out, I wonder why I haven’t killed myself. I have dreamt, wished and planned. I have tried. But I’ve never succeeded, thankfully. But it occurs to me: Why am I not dead yet? It struck me today; I participate in the slowest, most painful form of suicide possible. Living. I
I hate the heat. I hate being manic. I REALLY hate being manic and hot at the same time. Tonight I’m angry at everything, tired, and just plain fussy. Even cuddling with my Jenny isn’t helping. Sometimes I wonder if my world is going to be ruled by my mental illness, and I despair. Then
Everyone knows about mood swings. They are those awful, awful things that can take a grown man from glowing with pride to bawling of embarrassment all in one moment. But there’s more to mental illness, particularly Bipolar Disorder, than that. The worst thing of all is what I like to call “energy swings.” Energy swings
Of all the times in a person’s life, holidays like Mother’s Day are supposed to be special. These days are meant to be days of joy, and celebrating someone who gave you so much, that it kills you to think about losing them. Mother’s Day is not like that for me. Not one lick. Mother’s
So, you all might have noticed, it’s been some time since I posted. In fact, it’s been over a month. I feel awful for this, but it makes a very good point: Depression doesn’t just suck. It sucks you out of your world. It doesn’t punish you, and make you lament your lack of world.
I can’t believe how often I am asked about what the symptoms of depression are. It seems like nobody is educated on mental illnesses in any kind of comprehensive way. So today, we will talk about Depression and what the signs are. The first sign is feeling sad, empty, dejected, lonely, or isolated for no
Headed out to legoland this morning! Just wish it wasn’t so darn humid!
For the record: I’m alive! Several people have emailed me asking why I’m not blogging anymore, and I’m just out of sorts with the writing part of my brain. Also, I’ve realized that with someone else working on my blog, I lose motivation to work on it myself. This is something I’ve determined to fix.
